Insomniac Music Theatre #4: Depeche Mode - The World In My Eyes
Mig — Sun, 09/26/2010 - 04:26
Here's a quick peek into the world of Mig.
For as long as I can remember, I've always had some sort of agenda with a lot of things I do. Most people that know me probably recognize that a lot of what I do is very calculated. What others call quiet and boring, I call analytical and calculating my next move. Ok... quiet and boring as well. It's a side effect. Actually no it's not, analytical and calculating next moves kind of comes from being quiet. Gives me something to do internally while I try to piece together not only what someone is saying, doing, past observations, info relayed by others about those people, and seeing how everything fits together.
With the exception of when something relates either directly or indirectly to me, I'm able to paint a quick picture of a lot of people, and I haven't quite decided yet is it just process of elimination? Common sense? Actual bits of info from my psych classes when I started college sticking and allowing me to view things about others? Do I maybe watch too much Lie To Me* and think I'm Dr. Cal Lightman? It's a little of all of that I guess, and more.
I took a huge liking to Lie To Me*, just because a lot of that stuff, while is somewhat common sense for some things, people tend to not pick up on them from what I've seen. A slight smirk. Eye twitching. Biting your lip. All of it more often than not has a meaning behind it, even if you're not consciously doing it.
@clintshane and I joked about it at Jake's one day, shortly after Lie To Me aired on FOX for the first time. A few days or maybe 2 weeks later, Alex Rodriguez gave his interview after being caught with performance enhancing drugs. So many easy "tells" in his interview. Swallowing his saliva often. Blinking repeatedly. His skin giving off an Oompa Loompa skin tone. (ok that last one isn't really part of it.) We kept picking out things, like they do in the show. Although it was brought up that time, I tend to do it often. Unless there's something going through my mind at the time, my brain is generally working on analyzing something in front of me.
Generally, that's my laptop, but it can involve friends, siblings, random strangers outside my office, people at work. I'll probably have a bunch of people start watching what they do around me if they bother reading this. It's generally not anything bad I'm looking for. Just fun watching people squirm when they are called out on a lie, or you keep questioning them about things, cause you know what they've said about the subject isn't quite true.
That's how I entertain myself while someone else is talking or there's nothing else happening around me. It's kinda weird, really weird actually. I don't know why, or for how long I've done it, but I can't seem to turn it off. I don't always use my powers for evil. I will sometimes tip friends off in situations about either the way someone else is acting, or how they're acting, and how they can maybe change what's happening.
A lot of those same "micro-expressions" as they're called in Lie To Me, are recognized by your subconscious, yet you don't realize what you've seen. But then you realize yourself starting to react to that expression. I'm kinda just babbling now, so I'll move on to one other things.
Aside from this crazy thing, I'm fairly normal... as normal as anyone can be anyway. I can usually carry a conversation with just about anyone. When that's going on, I'm generally not poking and prodding unless I just start asking a bunch of weird questions. Jack of all trades, master of none pretty much describes my vast knowledge of as many things as I know, but I don't really consider myself in any particular topic or subject. I tend to pick up bits and pieces from people, and store them to my memory where I can recall when/where/what the conversation was in reference to. It helps with trivia. Sporcle. Usually it's random sports facts, which pretty much occupy about 87% of my brain.
For those that know me, I tend to act a certain way, and people freak out when I stray from my normal way of going about my day. A lot of times, I do it for reaction, just to see what others think of whatever change, regardless of how small or large the change is. I generally try to predict what someone's reaction to something will be. Many times it's right. But again, it may just be common sense telling me the most likely reaction to something.
To the seven of you that kept reading this far, congratulations. You win nothing. I'd like to apologize for having you read through all that crap. 5:22 am right now, so about 95% probably doesn't make any sense. The parts that do only make sense at this hour.
I guess the last thing I want to say before I submit this is, I'm watching you. I'm judging you. I'm analyzing every single move you make. Every breath you take. Every single day. Every time... sorry. Pandora is playing The Police now.
The funny thing is, after reading this, you'll probably start acting slightly different around me, which will let me know that you read this entire thing, especially since now that you read the last line, you'll be trying hard to NOT have a change in how you carry yourself around me.
Creeped out yet? Good. Good night.
